Monday, August 17, 2009
the way to start the week? to put on masks and act like nothing has happened.
what comes out of it? nothing but acts and lies.
at abt 845am, made the decision to partial...just 15mins into the lesson today and that's it...
i feel that im so pathetic, so pathetic.
was it a mistake to not cut deeper two years ago? was it a mistake to run away from everything and end up having such a fucked up life now? was it a mistake to take everything the way it comes and not question it even if it was wrong?
i have so many questions in my head running... everything that is driving me to a dead end now, was everything that made me survive through the years.
im a bird without legs, not about having freedom, but about no legs to land on safety; grounds. so i have to fly hopelessly, no matter how tired i am, so that things can still fall on me. when i dive down, i dive down straight, into the ground.