Monday, June 16, 2008
lululu...
I just felt the sudden emptiness in my heart(not on the negative side till i really wanna commit suicide)
i cant seem to find anything to dedicate more.maybe it's just too sudden!XD
too lazy to think for the entry title.
well, the time moment i came back from bangkok(the second time/11-14),
i was like sort of bombarded with events like the Kanchanaburi Settlers Outing.
then my MOOOOOOM bugging abt tuiion.
then the dedications...
leaving me NO TIME FOR MY NEWLY BOUGHT-FROM-MBK PSP GAMES...haha...
it's just some old games like the Sims 2, the Simpsons, Pool game, Sponegebob(Yellow Avenger) and Crazy Taxi. they only cost like 50baht(ard SGD$2) although i can get them for free from my friend but it was just too long to wait.ROAH...now im stuck on them...
retarded games!!!lululu~~~
feeling bored!!!shall go play my PSP...
PS. thank you Clar for saying that you miss me and that im heartless not to reply...sorry la.
need me to make it up to you or not???hehe
6/16/2008 10:03:00 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
DEDICATION TO AMBER!
This is dedicated to Amber after her dedication to me on her blog.
I did not tell Amber that I'm dedicating this to her.
'Cause I wanna leave it to fate.
Hi Amber, how are you?
Ever since the time you cried(the prediction part) and that I was with you at Kanchan, we had the gap between us further from before.
Probably because I was PMS(not pushing the blame on it), I had that serious mood swing and everything started.
I really do not know how to put my thinking and feelings in words.
I probably was annoyed by anything under the world.
At times when I really get crazy, I get VERY annoyed at the slightest sound/noise I hear.
And this, I get irritated and got it on maybe you and Charmaine and Dorcas.
I apologise.
The things between us are very mixed up and I am annoyed by it.
There are things I shan't say here and I really hope you know what I mean.
As a friend, I support you in things you do but at times, in my heart I don't.
I get vexed and annoyed when you use me as excuse because I think that that is wrong.
I may not have the rights but sometimes I really do not understand and do not agree why you do some actions and do not practise what you preach.
You have really changed a lot.
Sometimes, I get afraid of you because I do not know who you were.
But now, I really want to leave everything behind or just hand it over to God and focus on what I need to.
Hope that we will be fine!
Love, Cheryl
6/15/2008 10:53:00 PM
back from...bangkok
you may ask..'back from bangkok again?
thought i just came back a week ago?'
yes i did...
i came back from Thailand, Kanchanaburi and Bangkok last week with my school(SL)
and yes i did...
i went back to Bangkok again on the 11th and came back yesterday the 14th.
you can call me a Bangkok freak but yea, it's true.
it's my second home and I definitely can be a tour guide for all my friends!!
if you were to ask me where would I like to migrate to, I would say Bangkok and Hong Kong.
Bangkok and Hong Kong are simply fantastic.
this time round, the trip was sponsored.
ain't I always lucky?
and also actually, I only wanted to tell Jessie about this trip(is this 'declaration' counted telling everyone?)
Jessie, as far as I remember, is my best best friend throughout these years since we became sworn sisters since we were P3?
we had never been through big arguments nor any fights!
although since S2 when we separated class, we met up much lesser and stuff.
we really kept that close relationship in our hearts!at least i really do!
anyhoot, back to topic.
this trip was a little bit different cos most of the time we were going to temples.
although I'm a Christian, I do respect these other gods.I believe too.
and we also had dinner at the same place throughout the whole trip.
a lot of funny things also happened during this trip.
we went to Suan Lum night market on the last night.
and I saw Randall the fake.
this little guy really looked like my couz...
haha.then i have 4 MORE BIKINIS INTO MY COLLECTION!HAHA...
i had gold and blue the other time, this time round was green, orange, purple and red/pink/white strips!haha...
kinda enjoyed this trip!i bought a BIG lollipop with 15 small lollies inside at the airport.
wanted to get the whole lollie(1.4kg if im right) at MBK.
airport lollie was 430baht
MBK lollie was 480baht.
im dumb right...haha...
therefore, this entry explains why I was MIA for these days.XD
6/15/2008 09:29:00 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
S2E
i managed to get away from S2E...
thanks to my mum of course...haha
without her consent, i will be like suffering dude...
im like 'enjoying' at home, trying to get started on my work...
well, at least i tried doing my chem...it's so difficult...lala...
im going crazy...lalala...anyhoot...
jessie, im behind you always ok...thank you for always being a sis!
clifford, im behind you always too...all the best!!!
6/10/2008 01:27:00 AM
FOR THE FRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!!
as what we call it in chinese, i ate TWO, NOT ONE BUT TTWWOO 三頭鮑!!!
SO EXCITED!!!HAHA...i can't believe that i took TWO WHOLE 三頭鮑 today, in this SO early stage of my life!!!awww!!!haha
6/10/2008 01:14:00 AM
Saturday, June 07, 2008
cant get to sleep...watching tv now, eating my thai tom yam myojo bowl noodles
i seemed to have remembered the days when you and i would sit in front of the tv and eat our thai tom yam noodles which were so spicy for us tt we just keep laughing...but now, i think it is maybe impossible to do that again.
a lot(?) of things had happened.what really happened?
mostly were cliques problems and someone's problems.
this entry is gonna be abt how things have changed between the four/five of us, i wont say the names but you know who.it may seem to you that im being mean/bad to be doing this but this is my point of view of all things that have happened.you may wanna be mad at me as im doing this(AS EXPECTED) or wake up and get it over and done with for the rest of your lives...
list of things that happened.(that is if i remembered)
~i have hurt this friend of mine cos u said tt she did something only sluts would do.
so i was stupid, i joined in to be mean to this friend(btw, it was based on a one-side account).hereby, i wanna say "Sorry" to this friend(if u noe im talking abt you) that i've hurt u times and times when 'she' said those things.
~i may not have the right but to the same friend tt hurt the other friend, i think now, you are MORE SLUT than she was.YOU DID MORE SHAMELESS AND HARMFUL THINGS TO OTHER PEOPLE AND THAT YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS.WHY?
~because of her misunderstanding her and we all took sides against each other,things between us were stiff...but im glad it was clear after a while.
now back to recent(cos i forgot all the others)
~people blaming me for predicting things that came true, blaming me for saying things that i shouldn't say and in the end when i asked wad's happening, you guys don tell me and keep blaming me, of course i would bloody hell get angry and raise my voice to get them answer my question.but they all look at me like i am in the wrong and im still raising my voice acting like im innocent.if you guys are reading this, this was how i felt at that time, so i walked out of the hotel room angrily and i realy just wanted to find a place and cry. i felt so wronged.and maybe im too sensitive or wad, since the last night at the resort, i felt that you guys had something abt me that you didnt want me to know. i tried so hard to pretend that nothing had happened but i couldn't. this thinking of be strangers and enemies again just keep flashing in my mind but i know i will not do that. whatever it is, nature, please take your course to clear everything and that. i really enjoyed the fun times we had since last year's S2E.
finish of venting those that i've remembered.if you guys wanna gossip abt me and be mean to me, so be it. if i had the guts to write this, i would expected it to happen.things will happen either way.if you all decided to be mean to me, i will either be mean back or let it be. if you guys are willing to accept all these i've said and still treat me as normal, i'll go along. thanks for the friendship though!
6/07/2008 04:29:00 AM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
BACK FROM KANCHANABURI SINCE YESTERDAY!!!
ALTHOUGH I HAVE SO SO SO SO MUCH TO BLOG AND SAY ABT...
IM NOT GOING TO...IT'S JUST TOO MUCH HAPPINESS AND STUPIDNESS(POINTED TO SOMEONE)
SO FUN...REFER TO MY FACEBOOK FOR UNGLAM PICS.
I REALLY LOVE KANCHANABURI MAN.
MISS THE PEOPLE.
MISS THE FOOD!
MISS OUR GANG.
MET MY NEW SIBLINGS-clifford, marilyn, jacob.
LOTSA LOTSA THINGS!.
6/03/2008 06:25:00 PM
