Tuesday, January 30, 2007
IM SO DEPRESSED!
i really dunno wad the hell is wrong with me la...there is just something that is bothering me in my heart...but i just cant seem to figure out wad is it..it is such a bother that i wanna cry...looks like the depth of my depression has gone deeper...it's true...I DO SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION!I'M LIKE A PSYCO FREAK...people think i am crazy sometimes...to me that is normal...something like i have a split-personality...CAUSED BY STRESS FROM EVERYWHERE!so it is like if u ask me to vent out my stress by punching a boxing-punch-bag(the BIG ones),i will probably break 10 of them...but now,seriously,i think if i were to die the way Beatrice Xu( 許瑋倫) did, i will be glad...so if u see me standing in the middle of the road or something like that,dun block me...
1/30/2007 07:51:00 PM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
argh....frustrated!!!
fuck la....if my mum wasnt my mum,i will kill her...
so damn fucked up with her...
im oso damn disappointed with my dad...
so disappointed tt words like these came out of my mouth...
"JUST SUE HIM"...why cant i just have a happy family?
it's really very hard to live in such a broken and complicated family like i have...
it's so stressful and tiring tt u just wanna commit suicide...
i really hate my family now....
more than ever...
1/28/2007 08:34:00 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
damnit...laptop kena virus....
toopid la...laptop kena virus...feel like slamming it on the floor la...
haiz...got it fixed(temp.)...so here i am to blog...
well...yesterday was X-country...so fun....heavy downpour...
we ran in the rain....much much beta than in the sun...so cooling...
saw mrs lim shivering...so fun...then my knee really cannot make it...
i cant walk properly and not mentioning bending my knee...
i summore still went shopping after tt...wanna 'kill' my knee...
then today slept in late...went to Tampinies...
went to Seoul Garden in Tampinies Mall and sat for 2.5 hours...
i sure ate alot...but it was the only meal of the day...and im really gonna skip till lunch tmr...XD...
gonna end now...
1/27/2007 11:05:00 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
i bought a dress for you...
to someone:i bought a dress for u!!!
well..it sort of didnt come easy as i hadda bribe people for it...
and i hadda borrow money from people too...hehe...
really hope she'll like it...she gotta wear it!if not i will bug her...
it is a very sweet dress...specially for a sweet girl too
1/21/2007 08:18:00 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
i saw her...
well...i had training today....but school ended at 1315 while my training was at 1530...
so was roaming around...then i decided to go queensway with nicolas, dorcas, charmaine,weizheng and kylie...
we spent like two hours there just to see wad designs there are available for our class jersey la...so i was late for training...but before tt we went to eat macs...
then i went for training and saw mikhall oso late because of class admin...haha....
training ended and i hadda go beauty world so i took MRT to CCK then took the LRT before bus 184...
and guess who i saw on the LRT...PEGGY-JIE...hehe....at first i was like looking at her when she board the LRT...i wasnt sure whether it's her so i softly called her...it was really her....she changed so much lor...hehe...still so pretty...hehe...man i miss her alot...most probably because she's my favourite teacher during my primary school days la...and maybe i was her best librarian!xD...so miss her lor...im crazy le...hehe...we chatted a lil before she went off...
im damn tired now la...plus my knee is hurt....then dunno whether tmr got x.country training or not...haiz...byes
1/19/2007 08:57:00 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
new specs!
i bought new specs!
1/17/2007 12:23:00 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
so pai seh....
ok...there was chapel today and like....it was totally screwed up...
i was suppose to sing with ryan for mr tan...the mics screwed up...
then ryan gave me a scare...omg...i want to *** oso lor...deng scary la...
then after chapel was PE...we ran around the dover estate...2km i came back in 14.5mins.cool..it's a miracle lor...hehe
then we hadda do 3o lunches and 3o push-ups...the boys hadda do double...
ralene and i join in the last few..hehe...
then came recess...didnt eat...when to miss tai's LC to have a lil chat with her...
we were talking abt my health and stuff....let me repeat again...
“惠尹，我想出席的是妳的婚礼，不是丧礼!"
so i was up to some mischief again...
then we were laughing and laughing...hehe...
then school ended and i went to pass something to her..hehe...then she saw my gingerman tag...hehe...i gave it to her though she said tt she wasnt allow to receive any present...i stuffed it to her...hehe...and i gave her a letter with a pick in it..hehe...
we were talking abt the excursion her class was going today...i told her it was a bore and she asked me to talk softly and she didnt want her class to hear...hehe...
went to beauty world after school and went home at 8.30...xD
1/16/2007 11:41:00 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
depressed yet grateful...
it's been a long time since i update le....still deciding whether to shut down this blog...
well...anyway...i bought an accoustic guitar...hehe...finally...but stupidlly snap the last string...xD..
im damn depress these days lor...really wanna slit my wrist...
had a lil chat with miss tai on tues...wad she said made sense lor...
but i wanna cry...but i just want someone to just gimme a hug and comfort me...
lend me their shoulders to cry on..
AND TODAY,SOMEONE DID GIMME A HUG...
the story goes...
feeling very depressed,i went to every lesson with no mood...
then came D&T,very very depressed aready...
miss tan noticed tt i looked troubled,or not feeling well...
she was like observing me,making sure tt i participated in class...
two periods done and recess came...she asked whether i was fine and replied saying i was fine,just feeling depressed...
then after school, i hadda hand in work to ms mano...i was in the hut...then miss tan walked pass...she saw me and came over and asked me am i feeling beta.i replied saying 'no,i so so so so depressed how can feel beta...'
she bagan to talk to me,comforting me...
she said make sure i dun bottle up my troubles,find someone to talk abt it...and i pointed to my tigger.
then she gave me tt 'lame you' look and said..."humans la...someone who replies u noe!"then i came back to my senses...there's still people who cares abt me...
before we ended to talk,she OFFERED A HUG!!!
AND OF COURSE I ACCEPTED...its like a relief for me...
so NICE, so SWEET of her...i felt like crying then la...
she went to the staffroom before coming out to get lunch...i went up when she came down...i couldnt find miss mano so i ran down the stairs and guess wad....i almost BANG into miss tan..both of us got a shocked and laughed like mad...luckily she didnt drop her lunch...hehe...she said "see la...ur tigger too hungry wanna eat my lunch!!!"
then i continue to walk down and saw miss tai...i wanna give up le so i asked her whether can she put my work on miss mano's table...she took it...and stared at me...
i noe wad she meant...becoz after going through rain and wind...the paper became 'kiam chai' which was wad i told her and both of us laughed...
im really DEPRESSED yet very very GRATEFUL & THANKFUL lor...
God made me that there's still people like miss tan miss tai other than Him who i can turn to...xD...
I LOVE YOU!!!
1/11/2007 08:51:00 PM
