Saturday, September 16, 2006
I've never been so tired b4...
school started off this week and I've been sleeping late...
I practically sleep @ 1 or 2...and wake up 6...
i just cant get to sleep...and i cant sleep in school...
this have been affecting me physically and mentally..i think..
i have no appetite, my headache and heart pain have became frequent...
i really feel like crying now...im tired and i have no one to turn to...
as mrs phua said when she saw me crying in her room,
"is there anything botherin u?everytime when u are quiet,u seem so sad.i dun see the always-bubbly u..."
i've been putting up a strong front and it is very tiring to pretend...
i guess im really going back to my old self.going back where i bottle things up in my heart.
im really gonna break down anytime...im really tired...
my birthday came and went two days ago...
i didnt feel any excitment this time round...
(except the part where my mum bought me everything i wanted on my wishlist and $$ to shop..)
probably because my heart wasnt positive at all...
im not getting use without the people tt left me end of last year till now...
i feel empty inside me...the positive me is gone...
i stayed back yesterday to see mrs phua off...we had lunch b4 leaving..
a group of us wanted to pray for her but didnt...dunno why...
then we got her up the taxi then we separated..i went home with ryan...
homed and i started to play the guitar and and fell asleep unknowingly...
i really need a break...
my tears woke up long time ago before my heart fell asleep.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
school reopens tmr
school's reopening tmr...
i've almost done with my work...
i got a new bag!!!adidas duffel bag...the gigantic one...
my bdae gift from my sis and her bf..cost $1++...
it can contain 4 babies...oh gosh it's big...
ok back to school topic...well...
THANK GOD there's NO training tmr, actually til 25 oct.
yippee...coz im practically not feeling well...
im in pain...forget it...
this is gonna be a short entry...im off to have a cup of tea..
Saturday, September 09, 2006
boring.
asi said,the hols are here and im so glad tt it's ending...
well...firstly, Steve Irwin passed away on Mon and i was practically shocked till i was crying...it is lyk he just went on JUST LIKE THAT BECAUSE OF A STUPID DUMB STINGRAY...but on the other hand, he died doing what he loved and was best at...now im practically sticked to the tv, looking out for his shows...
secondly, MRS. PHUA'S FAREWELL ON THURSDAY..
i skipped Athletics BBQ(which i paid for) for it...haha...
well...i was there at ryan's place at 2 and we were playing the comp and Chloe?(the b.i.t.c.h.), ryan's dog...well it's true that she's a b*tch but ryan goes on "my b*tch...,my b*tch..."and poor Chloe was muzzled as Mrs. Phua was scared of dogs...haha...AND Ryan practically stuffed an ice cube at my back...oh gosh..it was sick...but in the end he got scolded by his mama...haha
it sound...weird...haha...ok...i was practically the "main chef" and ryan was my advisor...we did kebab, sausages,wings,etc. ...haha...and all thanks to the food i nosebled again...crap...
got photos-->requested by ms tan who couldn't attend it...blur ones i say...check the pics out at flickr.(--,)haha...
i actually have some other things to this entry but i forgot what is it..fine...then i shall end...bye...
Sunday, September 03, 2006
omg...
crap man...my problem is coming back again...
im still not sleeping!!!it's cool man...
it's been a long time since i became lyk tt..
not sleeping at all for days, for weeks!!!
haha...so fun...it's lyk im the only one online again...haha...
playing online games now...haha...so fun!!!
19 hours of awakeness!!!haha...
and 235 hours to the day!!!
how i hate the hols...
the hols is here and i hate it...
i thank God that it is only a week off...
hols means slacking at home either eating, sleeping or watching tv since im almost done with my homework...
hols means more hanging out at Beauty World practically doing nothing!
hols means not interacting with schoolmates and caring teachers(*now at this point schoolmates will think tt 'oh,cheryl is s**king up the teacher's asses again and tt is bcoz u dunno the real story as only mrs. phua understands) im beginnning to love and appreciate the school after "that" happened...
i dunno why...
wednesday was the celebration of Teachers' Day as well as the last day of term...
the celebration was a success...u see, i was helping out at T-zone in the morning b4 school start as PiE had prepared breakfast for teachers...i could see that the teachers were really enjoying the breakfast...later part was a show in the hall from students to teachers...awesome but pain...i had gastric after not eating for the whole day except for the pieces of ham i pinched from T-zone...
after the whole thing, miss lim brought all the teachers out to Johore Bahru to a seafood lunch!weird right?crap totally...mrs. phua was also reluctant to go...
i went to ryan's house to discuss abt mrs phua's farewell with yuliang, ralene, chermaine, latonia and helsa.
went home after tt...
back to tuesday...the sort of official last day of school...
i was so angry during chapel...
i was so angry tt i wanted to slap the sec 1 but i didnt of course...
but i practically shouted at them...sorry guys...
but seriously, the backups weren't focusing at all...i bet they were not even aware that they were on stage for God...skipping that part...
i stayed back in the afternoon...forcing mrs. phua to counsel me...actually to be her last counsel meeting of the term or even in her last days in Fairfield...
dunno why i had the urge to have someone to counsel and talk abt my probs...
i bet i cant hold it back anymore...im breaking down again...i cant act strong anymore...
Lord, help me...
well in the end when i decided not to bother mrs phua, she said 'come come come, i really need to talk to u abt ur problems'
at tt time i was abt to jump down and die aready...
we talked...for a lil...but it was good though...i wasnt stuffed til the brim anymore...
we were interupted by congyu, latonia and ryan...tt ended our counselling session...
later at 5+?, ryan's mom fetched me home...i hid in my room for the rest of the day without dinner...
im gonna end my long entry soon after this...
sone of u have realised tt im talking abt mrs. phua more often these few days.bcoz she's leaving the school le...she will leave after the first week of school...there goes my counsellor...
*Chapel band members as well as .f.y.i. members,
we are having a farewell party-cum-bbq-games day for Mrs. Phua on 7th Sept at Ryan's place(Clementi) from 3pm till 12am...please call me for more info...thanks.
