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Saturday, July 18, 2009

five years ago.(AS CORRECTED)

seriously, if you ask me what was i doing now five years ago(AS CORRECTED), i cant answer you, but after i went through my blog(which didnt help) and through his, i could remember having a friend happening.

four years ago, young, innocent, in 'love' for the first time. and i totally have no memories in my mind. i cant remember the things we had done but we were happy? if im not wrong, 'you and i', started when you popped the question while we were having lunch together on dunno which day. was it a mistake? it all ended soon after.

dun ask me why im going through this, i just felt like saying these, out of sudden, even though i never ever acknowledge our relationship in front of any before. sorry if im hurting you again by bringing this up. flashbacks of our happy times just kept coming back since the beginning of this month. then i looked back, into your blog and friendster, etc. remembering sweet messages from you led to hurting messages from me. remembering the rejected calls led to remembering you banging your hand/head into the pillar in anger/sadness after i crushed your letter. were we still together that coming CNY? you never gave up waiting for me after we made a promise to wait for four years to pass while i just felt that agreeing to that promise was to solve the problem in short term. when you gave me that super-oversized ring, i didnt noe wad to do cos it was like after we broke. in the end, you kept the ring.

all these years i've tried so hard to avoid you(so hard, neighbour) and you tried to not upset me further. now that i've moved away for six months, the conflicts between us increased a lil and stays the same like forever.

thank you for absorbing my selfishness, thank you for your love, thank you for waiting. thank you for moving on.

7/18/2009 10:33:00 PM

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