Thursday, July 30, 2009
have not been updating....too lazy, too tired....
talk abt this week, monday was formal-wear day...so everyone was quite nice looking.
took alot of pics up at facebook.
then tuesday, school as normal, met ryan and sarah after school, and went to dover together.
ryan and i continued to Fairfield for service prac as well as dinner date with Miss Pam.
it just felt so good to be back there, not that some people are worth mentioning abt...
so after the prac, the three of us took a bus to Holland V and embarrassing things just have to happen to me in public...
the stupid bus braked so hard that i did a swing, yes, a 360degree swing. how embarrassing that was.
we ate at ThaiExpress and because of Ryan's comment, Miss Pam took the bill....sorry Miss Pam, Thank you Miss Pam.
both of us still gonna stuff you the money back on friday anyway...
quite fun and weird at the same time...i mean, it's good catching up but felt a lil weird eating with your ex-teacher.
so went home with ryan,by cabbing. we were like argueing which is the nearest bus stop and 'if only it was 8,...'
we quickly took a glimpse at the time and yay, we took a cab...
and after takinga nap that night, i woke up with flu...
it got worse the next morning with cough and sorethroat, so i didnt go school...since it was programming too....
had NO point going at all...so went to office and eriani called me to ask if i was in class...excepted that they not in school...
cos eliza didnt make noise when i didnt wake her up...
worked whole day ytd, and still didnt feel better...
now im like in school, with everyone like not happy with me like that, giving that shitty look.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
couldnt wake up and so didnt go to school today(fri)
woke at 12 and off to office i went.
it was such a super boring day with nothing i can do cos my lappy not with me...
could only facebook but nothing much there...
ate dinner and back home...
chatted here and there, nothing to do...
tv-ed, stoning...now, on bed, browsing facebook and trying to find things to do to make me sleep(like blogging)....
seriously bored.........................................................................
Thursday, July 23, 2009
today was 'great'...first,crying in class. next, made someone else cry. followed by making myself feel so much like dying.
milktea-tunasandwich-ed with eriani during the first break..then facebooked all the way until i went partial...
reached BW and lunched with uncle and aunt.
started preparing and stuff while my feet totally hurt...so long never wear heels and now standing the whole day with heels was hell
i have like three blisters now...and that the kids have been accidentally and purposely stepped on my feet.
right, so when there were lesser people, i was like doing RJ and FB notes...haha....
then packed and home...settled down, totally cant feel my feet anymore....
now very very tired....needa sleep to wake tmr...
and trying to not think so much for the time being.
dont fucking judge people when you are not qualified to do so.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
im going through all these shit, alone, all by myself.
if im gone, im still alone, but happier.
signing off.
still in office, final deco for tmr...
using? my mum's lappy, of which i have to take serious care of it.
woke up late today, same as eliza and eriani.
haha...so met up and ate at food haven. nasi lemak.
went to class after that and we were all alone....
and i was trying to find windows for the whole day to jump....
decided to partial after eliza kept nagging...
they decided to keep me accompany cos i had no where to go and outram was too far for me.
hung out at W1L1 then to Subway.
thanks girls.
headed to office and deco and deco and deco...
but i was so tired, really felt like sleeping.
and i think i got flu or something.
and i bloody hell always kenna scolding for nothing. like f*, if you got pms, then zip your mouth.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
im totally screwing up my whole life.
i can only blame myself.
i've made a mistake tonight and i stood up bravely and admitted.
i was told how much disappointment i was and i seriously know i deserved it.
im such a total jerk..
people, stay away from me....
Before my ipod battery dies too.
updated@9+pm
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dear friends, if you want me alive and in good mood the next time you see me, please pray for me..
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The day sucked. The new faci sucks. Toward the end of school nura was
so much in pain, transfering the pain in squeezing my jacket and my
hand. Haha. Not complaining but to show how much pain she was. Poor
girl. And she still insisted to take train home when she can faint
anytime. I stuffed her money and brought her to taxi stand with all the others after I
almost fainted too. We made irfan send her home. Haha. Now I'm in
office for final stretch of preparation for opening on Thursday. Yay.
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thanks eunice for the convo tonight. i really appreciate it and i really hope that it happens to all my friends who needs it. im proud of it but i will never be arrogant/stuck up with it because it comes from my heart.
Monday, July 20, 2009
finally settle down, on my mama's bed.
end of school, chatted with girls for a while then headed down to vivo for ICE AGE 3!
ate TYBM before the movie, ended up very full.
anyway, Peaches and the three small dinos are just so cutie!!!!
haha...made my day man...waited 15mins for a damn cab and homed...
quickly did RJ and nura's note at Facebook and off to bathe.
now searching for things to do and finding things to eat..
yes, im hungry now. hungry for everything.
listening to emo songs too. roar!
and searching for notes and quizzes to do on Facebook
fuck, i just cried again. thanks girls for making me cry and consoling me.
yes i noe i should open up and share but, i cant.
thanks.
my eyes are kinda quite tired now, though i only cried for a very short while.
feeling empty, feeling very tired, might just join the friends that you guys mentioned while eating lunch.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
THUMBS UP.
何韻詩公開認係同性戀者
【18:09】2009年07月18日【on.cc專訊】 何韻詩（何C）接受電台節目《十人巷》訪問，被主持人森美與陳志雲以抽籤形式抽出題目發問，森美看見題目即呆了一呆才問：「你係唔係同性戀？」何C爽快直接地回答：「係！嘻！遊戲之嘛！」
事後記者再追問何C是否承認是同性戀者？她說：「呢個問題大家已經問咗好多次，我亦答過好多次，呢個年代對於呢個話題冇乜特別，呢一刻你可能喜歡男仔，但一年之後你又可能喜歡女仔。」
on.cc
fucking cool shit...that's why i love goo...
Saturday, July 18, 2009
five years ago.(AS CORRECTED)
seriously, if you ask me what was i doing now five years ago(AS CORRECTED), i cant answer you, but after i went through my blog(which didnt help) and through his, i could remember having a friend happening.
four years ago, young, innocent, in 'love' for the first time. and i totally have no memories in my mind. i cant remember the things we had done but we were happy? if im not wrong, 'you and i', started when you popped the question while we were having lunch together on dunno which day. was it a mistake? it all ended soon after.
dun ask me why im going through this, i just felt like saying these, out of sudden, even though i never ever acknowledge our relationship in front of any before. sorry if im hurting you again by bringing this up. flashbacks of our happy times just kept coming back since the beginning of this month. then i looked back, into your blog and friendster, etc. remembering sweet messages from you led to hurting messages from me. remembering the rejected calls led to remembering you banging your hand/head into the pillar in anger/sadness after i crushed your letter. were we still together that coming CNY? you never gave up waiting for me after we made a promise to wait for four years to pass while i just felt that agreeing to that promise was to solve the problem in short term. when you gave me that super-oversized ring, i didnt noe wad to do cos it was like after we broke. in the end, you kept the ring.
all these years i've tried so hard to avoid you(so hard, neighbour) and you tried to not upset me further. now that i've moved away for six months, the conflicts between us increased a lil and stays the same like forever.
thank you for absorbing my selfishness, thank you for your love, thank you for waiting. thank you for moving on.
Friday, July 17, 2009
yes, Erianibby updated her blog after i told her to but she's lazy....and updated my fugly pictures on facebook..
back from office, been cleaning the signage and stuff...in the end, my nails are ruined...
so tired...crapped up my RJ...
i just cant quiet my heart down, this feeling sucks.
and thanks eriani for the song. :D
totally not listening in class....in second meeting now and im in facebook and blog-hopping...
ELIZA not in school today... :P. tuna-sandwiched and milk-tea-ed with eriani.
just not interested in class today... wanna CS after so long....................................
class so small today.
cheer up friends, loves.......
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
totally wanted to not wake up in the morning...so comfortable but still, i did... :P
woke up 20mins later than usual but still very early, first to reach the class.
today was a total mess...programming's really getting on our nerves and UT is just tmr....
so lost..........felt like going partial so much, BUT i didnt, unlike someone! haha...
went to office after we were dismissed at 3pm, the freaking bus came 20MINS after i started waiting....crap.
had Macs, then RJ-ed, slacked, 'packed', and i f-ing hell fell off my chair and landed on the floor with a loud bang...and now, there's a f-ing BIG bruise on my poor butt.
then dinner with Serene at Prince, and so she was so lucky to meet the legendary 'silent person'...seriously affected our appetite...anyway, we were just laughing our heads off in the restaurant.
homed, bathed, now waiting for hair to dry and off to sleep...
tmr have to fix up 2 more pantry cupboards at the office, need some energy.
ciao.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
totally forced myelf to wake up this morning...in the end, throbbing headache the whole morning.
managed to take a power nap on the train, bus-ed to school. (the f*ing bus company took $4 away from my card ytd...f*)
today all girls team, needed help but i was just there researching on MacBook...haha...
drank quite alot of milk tea today, ate with girls today, talking abt each of our probs..
everything was fine until something on msn happened in the afternoon.
sorry girls, if i wasnt replying to you guys when you were talking...
on the bus to office, was totally thinking why i would get so bothered by that...
office, ate, RJ-ed, Packed...home@10+pm.... bathed, dunno doing wad....now blogging...
have been thinking and thinking and thinking again. on wad? i dunno...
just cant open up...
Sunday, July 12, 2009
straight 10 hours of working today, though i couldnt do much most of the time.
just too tired and very difficult to move without any pain/aches.
after three days of workout, im totally shredded.
tested my physical abilities too much and more disappointment by people around me.
thank you those that truly believed and supported my mum and me that we both could do this.
thanks jac and family for helping everyday(since you have a share in the office too anyway. :D )
60% done unpacking, having my own corner to work is really great.
really too tired to think nor type now...waiting for my mum to help me do a facial and then i'll sleep...
also trying to decide whether i should bring my laptop to school tmr.
and i might go late to school if i feel too tired in the morning.
back from shifting the office. very, very exhausted.
fixed up most of the shelves today, 4 more to go tmr.
it's never easy to do all these, no matter how many people is 'supporting', never.
today ended with more body aches, bruises and more love for my dearest mummy.
tmr will be more of clearing and cleaning, and positioning and unpacking if we can make it.
meeting at 1pm tmr, have to clear the old premise by the end of the day.
just got more tired after crying, worn out physically and emotionally.
will i feel better if i would just leave this world?
Friday, July 10, 2009
trying to use my laptop to the fullest usage before it really dies...
I already certified my laptop as DEAD a few hours ago.
the crappy motherboard had gone hay-wired.
so now, there is no workable built in wireless, no camera connected and the screen is totally screwed...
and so, i began the mission to save $$$ to buy a Macbook asap....
so wadeva things that any of you guys wanna buy for me, dun buy, give me CASH.
im very desperate for a laptop now, and i dun wanna use my mum's.
very sleepy...will fall asleep on sofa soon...seeya...
BOOOO....
here to update and to reply nura and erynne and linking nura.
writing diary and replying to dear pammie. today's faci seriously wtf...
will update again...
Seriously exhausted mentally and physically(though a hug from anyone would help me feel
better). Finished packing the WHOLE office today with serene and
jacq's help. Took like whole 8 hours or more. I have like salonpas on
my shoulders and a guard on my ankle. Hurts man. Though packing is
done, there are more finishing and clearing to do. Will be totally
busy and tired. Really needa go and get some solid sleep
Went partial off school today, since eliza was leaving, jj also,
eriani and i decided to leave and stay in the library. And sorry
ELIZAif i was really bad. Then I left school at 2 and headed to office to
pack everything. I can't believe this is the second time of moving
office in a year, and I swear I will make my space more cosy this time
round. I'm shifting the office to Beauty world again so I'll see you
guys around there too.
Laptop is still not ready after first round of fixing so I can't use
it. And I'm really very tempted to get a MacBook. But no money la.
Wait for me to save money is to wait long long. I mean my laptop is so
worn out already and it will keep losing the of value to even keep it,
I might as well just get a new laptop. And if I get a new laptop, I
might as well get a MacBook which is so worth it.
Thursday, July 09, 2009
WTF
First thing first,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ELIZA AND PAMELA!
(end of happy note)
My laptop just died on me. I mean it is still working fine but the
wireless totally crashed on me. Seriously WTF!!!!!!!! Damn pissed. I
can't go online then, can only rely on my iPod now. Luckily I have
acess to blog, Twitter, ebuddy, mails, and facebook here. Still not
that bad. Crap that laptop of mine la. So here to inform you guys. I
dun think there would be any using of laptop tmr even if I bring it to
school(so I'm not bringing it to school). I can't do nothing without
Internet, and it will be worse if I couldn't rent one from school.
Full of shit. I'm already suffering enough and this is happening to
me. CrApppppp~~~~~~~
Anyway now I'm off to send my birthday email to Pamela and maybe put
my diary in my bag if I'm too tired to write now.
Ciao!
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.
- Michael Jackson
this is so true.
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Thanks Eliza for inviting me to the party. Shopped at orchard for her
present.
I love the feeling of just walking around alone, just too used to it.
I started stoning on the way home, bothered by nothing and thinking
blankly. Just couldn't focus on doing anything. Probably because of
the few sips reminded me the past. Can't take it anymore!!!
Lying on the bed after writing my diary full of feelings, worn out,
hoping that insomnia won't come tonight.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
end of first day back to school.
totally tired. went into class without a single soul in it...but luckily my classmates came in one by one...
totally had no idea wad was going on today...spent the day doing nothing...
bought concession and went home. tired but didnt sleep cos wanna make sure i could sleep later.
nibbled, bought dinner but ate half of it, in the end, cooking mushroom soup. tv-ed talked to patricia just now, although short brief, but still, happy for her, and now preparing to sleep...
still dunno wad to wear on sat cos i dun wanna 'die'...
sleepy, but feeling hungry..i should really stop nibbling...putting on weight...
UPDATED @ 2.32PM
CAN SOMEONE JUST KILL ME?
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lalalallalaalalalalalalalalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalala.......
im bored in class....
having the suckiest feeling ever........................SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
