bored and sleepy...
but i just cant get to sleep...
having nothing to do...and hating myself...
things are just not getting better...
when life's getting harder...
when laughing becomes a hard chore...
im getting back to the old Cheryl where she wears a mask and be cheerful...
*uck...i hate that...
it's just coming back, i've spent like a year to get rid of this feeling and it just comes back...
and i'm sinking right in.
no faith in God, no faith in anything...
this just *ucks up my whole life.