Thursday, December 25, 2008
christmas..and summary?
christmas is a time when you celebrate the Lord's day. a time to celebrate and to give thanks to. it falls in december, providing an opportunity to let me think back about the year and how the Lord has guided me through. :)
i just wanna say "Have a Merry Christmas everyone!"
and at the same time to wish Denisehocc.com a Happy Anniversary!
sorry guys, i have been spending my time working, slacking, sleeping and updating my canto-blog instead of here. you guys might wanna hop over to check on me next time. it's december 25th and i think i would have to sum up my year earlier than others who would usually do it on the last day of the year. i think this year was a very hectic one for me. it is a very important year to me cos it is my 'o' levels year and the year that i become 16, which means i have to grow mature(to which many people would say why cos to them i look like 20+... do i really look that old?). this year, i had to make a lot of decisions and of course, i do not deny that i have made mistakes. i regret those mistakes having to happen. regardless of studies and family, i've been keeping a lot of things to myself and i would believe that my reluctant behavior to speak out and ask help from others affected my judgement and disturbed my decision. i've never told anyone how i was feeling deep in my heart but i know some people might have knew that there was something wrong with me, eg. people who i was really close to and dared to speak to. i've also been thinking about loads and loads of things are nonsensical and inapplicable to my current situation. i had to put most of my focus on my studies that i didn't really cared about which is one major thing that makes me troubled and worry about now. so when i think back now. i know i would have handle things better if i had approach for help then. i realize that i am not those kind of people who can and want to open up to their family members. i think i open up to my closest friends, of course of which is very, very limited. being frank to either myself or to you, i have friends that can be counted with one hand. friends that are always there, who i can rely on and put my guard down. i am not a friendly person, and i can be very irritating at (most) times. but i guess i really want to thank those who have helped me through this year and that i really love you guys!
this year, to me, i realized and acquired knowledge of a lot of things. i learnt more things about myself, of which shocks even myself. and i hope i can continue to learn more of myself and change those bad habits of mine. i want to be able to accept things as they are and be friendly to others and myself. i hope others can also accept me as i am while i try to make myself a better person. (i know i am ending this out of nowhere but please forgive me as i just came back to continue after two hours break at WCP Macs.)
PS. real out of topic, i don't know what's wrong with me these days. i have been listening sad oldies. ha ha. currently listening to 梅艷芳 and 何韻詩.(and thus, this real out PS from nowhere.)
