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Saturday, June 07, 2008

cant get to sleep...watching tv now, eating my thai tom yam myojo bowl noodles
i seemed to have remembered the days when you and i would sit in front of the tv and eat our thai tom yam noodles which were so spicy for us tt we just keep laughing...but now, i think it is maybe impossible to do that again.
a lot(?) of things had happened.what really happened?
mostly were cliques problems and someone's problems.
this entry is gonna be abt how things have changed between the four/five of us, i wont say the names but you know who.it may seem to you that im being mean/bad to be doing this but this is my point of view of all things that have happened.you may wanna be mad at me as im doing this(AS EXPECTED) or wake up and get it over and done with for the rest of your lives...
list of things that happened.(that is if i remembered)
~i have hurt this friend of mine cos u said tt she did something only sluts would do.
so i was stupid, i joined in to be mean to this friend(btw, it was based on a one-side account).hereby, i wanna say "Sorry" to this friend(if u noe im talking abt you) that i've hurt u times and times when 'she' said those things.
~i may not have the right but to the same friend tt hurt the other friend, i think now, you are MORE SLUT than she was.YOU DID MORE SHAMELESS AND HARMFUL THINGS TO OTHER PEOPLE AND THAT YOUR ATTITUDE SUCKS.WHY?~~JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE RICH AND THAT 'I-THINK-I-AM-RICH-AND-PRETTY-SO-I-CAN-DO-WHATEVER-I-WANT'~~ IS GETTING (AT LEAST) ME ON MY NERVES!!have you ever think that you are the butt of jokes of everything you have done?how stupid you were when you said things and do the otherwise???JOKE!!the state you are in now is all because of yourself doing things that you know that it's gonna happen but you still do it.you cant just cry and push the blame on me cos i predicted it because EVEN THE BLIND WOULD PREDICT IT TO HAPPEN!!DUMB!!you say that they were playing with you but who's playing who???
~because of her misunderstanding her and we all took sides against each other,things between us were stiff...but im glad it was clear after a while.
now back to recent(cos i forgot all the others)
~people blaming me for predicting things that came true, blaming me for saying things that i shouldn't say and in the end when i asked wad's happening, you guys don tell me and keep blaming me, of course i would bloody hell get angry and raise my voice to get them answer my question.but they all look at me like i am in the wrong and im still raising my voice acting like im innocent.if you guys are reading this, this was how i felt at that time, so i walked out of the hotel room angrily and i realy just wanted to find a place and cry. i felt so wronged.and maybe im too sensitive or wad, since the last night at the resort, i felt that you guys had something abt me that you didnt want me to know. i tried so hard to pretend that nothing had happened but i couldn't. this thinking of be strangers and enemies again just keep flashing in my mind but i know i will not do that. whatever it is, nature, please take your course to clear everything and that. i really enjoyed the fun times we had since last year's S2E.

finish of venting those that i've remembered.if you guys wanna gossip abt me and be mean to me, so be it. if i had the guts to write this, i would expected it to happen.things will happen either way.if you all decided to be mean to me, i will either be mean back or let it be. if you guys are willing to accept all these i've said and still treat me as normal, i'll go along. thanks for the friendship though!

6/07/2008 04:29:00 AM

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