Saturday, September 16, 2006
I've never been so tired b4...
school started off this week and I've been sleeping late...
I practically sleep @ 1 or 2...and wake up 6...
i just cant get to sleep...and i cant sleep in school...
this have been affecting me physically and mentally..i think..
i have no appetite, my headache and heart pain have became frequent...
i really feel like crying now...im tired and i have no one to turn to...
as mrs phua said when she saw me crying in her room,
"is there anything botherin u?everytime when u are quiet,u seem so sad.i dun see the always-bubbly u..."
i've been putting up a strong front and it is very tiring to pretend...
i guess im really going back to my old self.going back where i bottle things up in my heart.
im really gonna break down anytime...im really tired...
my birthday came and went two days ago...
i didnt feel any excitment this time round...
(except the part where my mum bought me everything i wanted on my wishlist and $$ to shop..)
probably because my heart wasnt positive at all...
im not getting use without the people tt left me end of last year till now...
i feel empty inside me...the positive me is gone...
i stayed back yesterday to see mrs phua off...we had lunch b4 leaving..
a group of us wanted to pray for her but didnt...dunno why...
then we got her up the taxi then we separated..i went home with ryan...
homed and i started to play the guitar and and fell asleep unknowingly...
i really need a break...
my tears woke up long time ago before my heart fell asleep.